The BIG DEAL!

So many INCREDIBLE people.......

2010-08-07T01:40:00.004-06:00

As I get older, I begin to realize the lasting importance of friendships and relationships. It is people, not things that matter in the end. We cannot take our possessions with us, but our love for those around us is something that will last forever. There has been so much on my mind, too many to list and not that I would even want to. These are things in life,trials, hurdles, whatever it is you consider them, they are there and real and apart of my everyday thinking. Our busy lives help us forget what is most important to each of us, finding true happiness. Heavenly Father places people in our lives to remind us of just how much he loves and cares for us, we are is children. These angels that seem to come into our lives at just the right time, when we seem to need them the most. We learn from them, we love, we trust, we are better individuals because of them. To these incredible people in my life, I love you and I am better because I know and associate with you.

President Monson once said, "Find someone that is having a hard time and do something for them." When we forget about our own issues and heartache and make it a priority to love and serve someone in need, we find our TRUE self. I learned this ever important lesson as a missionary. When you loose yourself in the service of others, our perspectives change. There was a man that I grew to love while I served in Texas years ago. We met Billy Gilger, a very humble man. I wish I had a picture to share of him and I....I guess it's time to scan some and post them. I pay tribute to him today. He is a man of true character, love, obedience, and kindness. He had nothing and lived below poverty, yet he never once complained. He would give you the shirt off his back. I will never forget the day of his baptism. What a humble experience it was to see him washed clean and given the chance to start over. Billy lived a great life, one full of optimism and love. I love him, I miss him. To Billy, thank you for teaching me how to be un-selfish and to truly love someone else. One day we will see each other again and what a glorious reunion it will be.

I am making it a daily goal to say thank you more, to be more grateful. Telling those you love that you love them is one of the best gifts we can give. If someone is on your mind, call them, write them, stop by and see them. Let that person know you are thinking of them, express how important they are to you. Don't let the time pass, do it today, you will be so thankful you did!

Life is good....

2010-07-15T16:52:00.003-06:00

Sorry I have not posted in a month or so, life has been busy, but a good busy that is. Here are a few pictures to show what I have been up to. It has been filled with reunions with best friends, birthdays, spending time with family and so much more....

Thankful Tuesday....

2010-06-08T13:38:00.003-06:00

Today I have been reflecting on those things I am thankful for, here they are....

1. My relationship with my Father in Heaven
2. My Savior Jesus Christ
3. Mother...Her unshaken faith, devotion and love! She will never turn down an opportunity to help someone in need.
4. Dad- his HUGE heart, sensitive personality and willingness to show and express love.
5. Rachel- Her support, laughter, sense of humor, for just being my sister! She is a GREAT mother, and wife. My life would be empty without her.
6. Melissa- Tenderness, seeing her raise three beautiful boys! Her desire to serve and live righteously.
7. Ava- My precious Ava..Her spirit brings a smile to my face.
8. Keaton- His sense of adventure!
9. Andrew- His persistence and strength to NEVER give-up, no matter how many times he has been told NO!
10. Owen- I am just getting to know this little guy. He is so pure and full of smiles. I love seeing how much he loves and admires his mother.
11. Krista- Wow, a smile comes to my face when I say her name. We have been through so much together. I can tell her ANYTHING and she will listen and offer the best possible advice. She loves me for who I am, I do not have to change when I am around her. She makes me laugh, oh and we do laugh a lot together. I miss this lady! So many secrets shared between the two of us...She knows me inside and out!
12. Elise- I have only known her a few years, but we are kindred spirits, her and I. Our similar taste in music amazes me, Carrie, Kris Allen, Mat Kearney, just to name a few. She always calls back and shares her appreciation. She makes me SMILE!! I knew we knew each other in Heaven and we made a pact that we would be best friends!
13. Derek...Where do I begin to describe this amazing guy. We met about three months ago through a mutual friend. I love his sense of adventure and love for the outdoors. He has a soft heart and HUGE personality. We can finish each other's sentences. Derek came into my life at just the right time. We get each other so well and I cherish the time I am blessed to spend with him. We will be friends for life and beyond!
14. Laughter- I LOVE TO LAUGH!!!! It is the best possible medicine, even if it give me Crow's Feet (thanks Derek for pointing this out!).
15. Lilly- My adorable Boxer. She never talks back, loves to snuggle and keep me company at night. I loose my patience with her, but I lover her!
16. My Home.. A place to escape the hustle and bustle of such a busy world.
17. SUNSHINE- It's endless warmth can always bring a smile to my face!
18. Madalyn- She came into our lives for just a short time, but she taught me the importance of LOVE. Holding her for a few short minutes has left a tender spot in my heart. I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU! Seeing her precious little spirit made me yearn to be better in every way possible.

I am making it a goal to be MORE THANKFUL!

Carrie Underwood...Even better the third time around!

2010-06-02T14:40:00.003-06:00

Last night I went to the Carrie Underwood concert, and what a total blast it was! I went with Derek, Mikayla, Elise, Heather and Courtney. This was Derek's very first concert ever, and he had a blast, in fact we all did! She is stunning, gorgeous, fun on stage and sounds great live! Here are some pictures from last night's outing.

Why I love this girl......

2010-05-25T14:02:00.003-06:00

Me dear friend Elise was married a few weeks back and I was honored to be apart of it. Where do I even begin in expressing how much love and respect I have for this girl, my girl Elise. We met a few years back and have been close, I mean really close, I adore everything about her! She has stood beside me through good and bad, sad and happy. I owe so much to her, she has enriched and blessed my life in so many ways, too many to possibly list. To Elise, thank you for being so incredible, loving and compassionate. My life would not be that same without you! Here is to many more years, may they be as great as the past few, I LOVE YOU!

Lilly and so much more!

2010-05-03T13:38:00.003-06:00

I just realized it has been a month since my last post. I apologize to those who visit my blog and have been looking for a new post, new stories, new pictures to see. Life is constantly changing. Heartache, rejoicing, new experiences and learning who and what I am.

I have a recent addition to my family, meet Lilly. She is a purebred female, Boxer and she is the love of my life. I rescued her from a rough home and now she is a part of my life. I am not used to cleaning up after someone else. She is teaching me LOTS of patience. It is like raising a kid, having to take her out to go potty almost every 15 min while she is a puppy. I adore her sweet little face, her energetic personality and her spunk! To my little Lilly, I sure do love ya!

With the exiting of old friends, time welcomes in new ones. Friends that you find and swear you have known them from somewhere else, another place in time. Here is to Derek and Tim, my two amazing friends, who I love dearly. We relate in so many ways, we laugh, we cry, we share experiences that have brought us close together. I am so thankful for the true friends in my life!

Happy Birthday Mom!

2010-04-01T10:59:00.004-06:00

It has been a few days since my Mother's birthday, but I wanted to offer a tribute to her. She is a wonderful and incredible person, sister, mother, friend. Her laughter and sense of humor light up the room and people flock to where she is. I would say that I get my loudness and fun personality from her. She is amazing in every sense of the word. Her faith is unwavering, unshakable, fearless.

I remember a time on my mission, I had been out about a month and I called home. I was ready to come home. I was frustrated with a sick companion, being locked-up in our apartment and with the work. I know I was not supposed to call home, but I did, just to hear my mother's voice. She re-assured me I would be okay, that I would be able to work miracles and to forget myself and serve others.

Her willingness to serve others astounds me. She is a woman of great pride, and will NEVER turn down an opportunity to help another in need. She is a true leader in every aspect of the word. She has a huge heart. These are just some of the many reasons I LOVE my mother!

Old Photos hidden, friends remembered!

2010-03-25T14:40:00.005-06:00

Most of you know, I bought a new house over a year ago. I am still sorting through old boxes and hidden treasures. I came across this picture cd two of my best friends had given me back on 2005 for my birthday. I am so glad I found it. Here are some of the memories I uncovered. I was amazed at how young I look! Trina, Melanie, Michelle and Brian I sure do love you guys. Thanks again for all of the great memories we have had. It is funny, looking at these pictures and I can remember what my life was like then, where I was working, what my social life was like. A picture does really speak a thousand words!

My 3 little angels

2010-03-24T09:17:00.004-06:00

Life has been rough, and I mean very rough at times. Lots of crying, worrying, confusion, you name it, just down right tough. It is amazing how just one person can come into your life and change all of that crap and loneliness felt. That one person makes life worth living, brings you happiness, makes the sting of fear depart. I have three of these people in my life, my adorable nephews, Keaton, Andrew and Owen. I am eternally grateful for these little faces, these incredible Spirits I live among. They have gotten me through a lot of ugliness in my life, they make me laugh, they make me want to be better.

I am content just being with them and nobody else. They are judge-free, easy to love and quick to love in return. Perhaps it is the care-free lives they are currently living, or maybe they really are my guardian angels sent just for me. This is what I believe and will continue to feel. They are for me, to help me get back on track. Each of them has such a unique perspective. Keaton leads, Andrew for now follows and Owen is just beginning to find his place among these two giant brothers. To these three, I LOVE YOU. One day you will know just how much you have saved me.

Ava turns 3!

2010-03-22T13:47:00.004-06:00

Back on March 13th, Ava turned 3! She is getting so big, and I just love her to death! She wanted "Bolt," the dog as her birthday theme, but perhaps the biggest hit was the cake my sister had made, it was a Hamster! I have never seen so many presents for one kid, she is spoiled, yet so worth it! It was a joy seeing her open presents and play with her friends. We love you Ava and thank you for being a unique part of our family!

Cade & Courtney's Wedding

2010-01-11T11:44:00.005-07:00

Saturday was a very busy day for me. At 10:30 am, I went to the Boise Temple and waited for two of my best friends to get married. Followed my their luncheon at Johnny Carinos and the reception that night. After the reception we went downtown to eat at Old Chicago. What a great day, spent with amazing people.

Five For Fighting!

2009-12-17T10:33:00.002-07:00

Last night I had the opportunity to see John Ondrasik, lead singer of the famous band, Five For Fighting perform at the Knitting Factory in Boise. I went with Heather and Kasha, we had so much fun. Heather was lucky enough to get us both FREE VIP tickets to the concert. From old people, mullets and kids that smell like farm animals, we laughed, sang and had a great time, thanks for the fun evening girls!

Camp Gold Christmas Party-

2009-12-14T11:22:00.003-07:00

My dear friend Heather Hammond asked me to be a volunteer this year at the Camp Gold Christmas party. It was for kids with Cancer and their siblings. It was such a rewarding experience to share with these kids in their time of need. Jeff and I were over the 5-7 year old boys, we had the BEST group. Thanks to Cade, Keith, Elijah and Dilan for giving me a new perspective on life.

Broken Things to Mend.....

2009-12-11T09:15:00.005-07:00

I have felt like this broken and beaten down man for so long. I never knew what it meant to allow myself the time and ability to deal with things past and enjoy things present in my life. My perspective has all of the sudden been changing, I am growing and becoming something beyond myself. A dear friend told me that "pain is A messenger", listen to your pain and hear what it is screaming to you, to your spirit. This is the time for me to listen and listen with both ears, to hear for the first time those things I must now heal. Recognizing pain is hard and uncomfortable, yet it is an essential part of our living, growing and developing! I am loving who I am and all that I am. Time heals and for that I am grateful. There are so many wonderful and dear people in my life, their lives and stories have brought so much peace and joy. Our ability and desire to change however, must come in our own time and way. If there is something in your life that is asking to be fixed, something just screaming to be mended, please do it now, it cannot wait! Each life is precious, unique and individual, this is the joy of the journey.

Life is changing, I am changing....

2009-12-01T13:58:00.006-07:00

There is so much on my mind right now. So many things I want to say, need to say and wish I knew how to say. I have some big news to announce, but not yet. I need to make sure I am in a safe and comfortable place with myself before I share my story. It is very personal and life changing for me. For years now I have been developing myself and finding out for myself who "Justin" really is. The process has not been easy, yet it's my hope that my honesty and devotion to me and my life will help liberate someone else. All each of us want is to be completely and totally happy! This is what I want more than anything. Some BIG decisions are taking place right now and it is scary and lonely, but exhilarating all at once. I have so many supportive and genuine people in my life, too each of them I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I love each of you individually, without you, my life would not be possible! To my family especially, you are everything to me. To my two sisters, and the support they offer me, I owe so much to each of you. My little angels, Keaton, Andrew, Owen and Ava who bring a smile to my face everytime I see them, there love and innocence are qualities I admire and cherish. Here is to honesty and being true to myself and making decisions that make me love life again.

Demolition on my house!

2009-11-24T12:36:00.002-07:00

I have been in my new home for a year now. I cannot believe that it has been a year, the joys of home ownership! I had my 1 year inspection on Monday and found some serious structural damage to the outside of my house. I had previously noticed that the siding on the back of my home was really wavy. I had my builder remove the siding, only to find that the materials used to build my home were in horrible shape. For the past 2 days they have been messing up my house with tons of loud noise and dust! For those that know me, I am an organized clean freak!!!! This is driving me crazy! Patience is a virtue!

It was time for a small change.....

2009-11-23T10:57:00.002-07:00

On Saturday, one of my best friends Natalie, who is a hair dresser colored my hair a darker shade of brown and I absolutely love it! Thanks Natalie for the great advice and helping me to overcome my fear of changing colors!!!!

A much needed update about ME!

2009-11-20T10:56:00.000-07:00

Time seems to fly, I cannot believe that this year is almost over. Halloween has since come and gone, Thanksgiving is in a week and Christmas is around the corner. I know that Winter has just begun here in Boise, but I am already ready for it to be over. Maybe I just need to find a summer house in Florida, or California. Work is great these days, and it has been really busy for this time of the year. The International market has not been hit by the recession. City league volleyball is going well and I am having a great time playing and meeting new people. Here are some pictures of life lately. Some of the highlights these past few months are, dressing up as batman for Halloween and the Mat Kearney concert, he is AMAZING live!!! Oh and not to mention that Jeff and I went down to utah a few weeks ago for the BYU Homecoming game and getting my car towed! Thanks to all my great and loyal friends for being there for me!

Difficult Trials....

2009-09-01T13:46:00.000-06:00

I apologize to all those who follow my blog and have been looking for a new post, exciting adventures and most of all great pictures. Well to be honest, I have had all of these, but they have seemingly taken a back seat for the time being. I am going through some really huge hurdles, trials, growing experiences, whatever you want to classify them as. This one trial has shaken my faith at times, but most importantly it has taught me to rely on my Savior Jesus Christ. it is his eternal faith in me and who I am that keeps me going when times are tough, and believe me, they are tough!

These past few months have been HUGE for me. Admitting to myself that I have weaknesses and addictions that I cannot overcome myself. I need His help, the Master's healing touch to deliver me from this evil, this crutch. It has been almost impossible to sleep at night, and to get out of bed in the morning, I mean really HARD! I want to sleep to forget the pain, that pit in my heart that NEVER wants to go away even though I ask it to! I love this picture, I have it hanging in my home. This is me, Christ is holding me, comforting me, loving me regardless of what sin or burden I am working through. To my Savior, I love you, thank you for showing your love and faith in my life. The Master can change us and our hearts, he is ready today to allow us to change.

Luckily I am surrounded by the BEST and MOST loving people one could ask for. To those I have confided in and looked to for advice, I love you more than words can explain, I thank my Heavenly Father for each of you! Your prayers and faith are felt even if I have not taken the time to call, or write to thank you. So here is to healing, 100%. Better days are ahead, I can see it and sense it!

Happy 28 to me!!!!!

2009-07-15T14:05:00.001-06:00

Yesterday I turned 28! It was honestly the BEST birthday I have ever had. My family took me out to eat for lunch at Red Robin! Later that night, I went out with my best friends to Sushi, then to Cheesecake Factory! Thanks to everyone who made it such a special day for me!!!!

My new backyard!

2009-07-13T10:26:00.001-06:00

So just the other day, my mom was telling me that I needed to post pictures on my blog of my backyard, so here ya go! Before and after, what a huge difference!!! Thanks to all those that helped!

Summer bbq Kick-off!

2009-06-09T09:07:00.000-06:00

Last night, for the singles ward, we had a bbq at Merrill's Park in Eagle, our official welcome to Summer party! I love my ward and the friends I have made here. Great food, good weather and the best laughs!

Kelsie's Birthday Party!

2009-06-05T15:03:00.000-06:00

Last weekend was my dear friend Kelsie Moyle's 20th birthday party and her are some fun pics from the party we had for her, she had no idea, we kept it a complete surprise!

What I have been up to.....

2009-05-21T15:34:00.000-06:00

Over these past few weeks, I have been planning and spending for my huge backyard! From the sprinklers completion, to cement curbing to endless trips tree and shrub shopping with my mom, here is a little of what I have been able to do. It is overwhelming, expensive and time extensive, but fun all at the same time. I will post updated pictures as I complete projects. Wish me luck!

I went and broke my ankle!

2009-04-27T13:53:00.000-06:00

For those of you that are not on facebook and read my blog only, I have officially broken my very first bone. I wish that I could tell people that I broke it jumping off a cliff, or skydiving, or something cool like that, but I cannot! I broke it playing volleyball. I jumped and landed wrong and dang it, I rolled it! I can still hear it pop and pull and twist. Here are some pics of the glorious day! if you have a week stomach, don't look! I am so thankful I had great support that night. Thanks Kip for the amazing blessing that has given me hope that I will heal quickly! I thank each of you for your texts and caring phone calls!

I am an uncle again!

2009-04-21T11:42:00.001-06:00

Yesterday, Owen Ray Snyder was born at 11:15 am, he was 9lbs, 4 ounces, what a HUGE baby! Melissa and Owen are doing great! I love both of you and cannot wait for you both to get home so we can spoil him rotten!

My New Room Color!

2009-04-17T14:10:00.000-06:00

So I have been trying to save money and do some cheap and fun things around my house since I am not buying decorations like I used to. So I undertook the task of painting my master bedroom, here are a few pics, let me know what you think. It is still in the works and will be finished this weekend. Oh and I also added a few things to my guest bedroom and a front entry table!

Just to catch up.....

2009-04-16T10:17:00.000-06:00

So life has been up and down lately. All we hear about is how bad the economy is, well I am sick and tired of hearing about it! It has effected just about everyone, and I HATE it. The Lord is truly giving us a lesson in Humility and Faith and stretching us so very thin. People I deeply love have been hit hard by this economic crisis we are in. I have learned a valuable lesson, that material things do not bring happiness. I used to spend money and a lot of it. Stuff for my house, eating out with friends daily and new clothes. Now I am living on less than half of my monthly income, maybe even less than that! I am preparing myself for anything.

My older sister Melissa has been waiting patiently for her baby boy number three to arrive, he still has not made it here, but we hope it will be soon! I am excited to be an uncle all over again. In institute last night, Brother Richens made a comment that really caught hold of me. He said, "When the Lord blesses you with a Tender Mercy, despite the sins we commit daily, this is Grace." This is so true, we make mistakes everyday, but still the Lord blesses us with so much. One of the Tender Mercies that the Lord has blessed me with, is the bringing back an old and dear friend into my life. This friend knows who they are. I am so grateful we have rebuilt our friendship, this truly is a blessing from above!

I have been away from the blogging world too long...

2009-03-16T12:43:00.000-06:00

As I read through other's blogs, I realize how behind I am in keeping up to date on my posts. It has been over a month since I last updated each of you and posted some pictures from my crazy life. I cannot believe that I have been in my new house 5 months now. I have moved all of my stuff in, painted, moved furniture about a thousand times until it looks right and painted a few walls. It feels like a home, and I enjoy my own space and freedom. Bella is gone, and I really do miss her a lot. She was really sick and too expensive to get her healthy. Thanks to my little sister Rachel, she has a home and is getting better. So if anyone wants a beautiful white Persian kitty, please let me know!

Life has brought some challenges and trials that I cannot share, simply because they are too sacred. Despite the heartache and loneliness I have have felt, I know that my Father in Heaven has a plan for me. I went to a fireside last night and Sister McCauley said something I will never forget, "The Lord knows what you need, and he will give it to you when he is ready and when you are ready. It would be great if we could look into that glass ball and see our future, it would be so easy to prepare and plan ahead. This is not his plan, we must press forward and have faith." She is exactly correct, we must press forward and have the faith it takes to triumph! It has been about two months that I have been off all anti-depressants and I feel great. Looking back, I know that the medications I trusted my doctor's to give me, would heal me, they were wrong. I learned an important lesson, trust myself and listen to what my body is telling me. I knew that the medications were all wrong for me and that they were polluting me, but I failed to listen. I think that I am on the road to recovery.

Here are some pictures I have taken over the last month. So many friendships made and strengthened. Behind each photo is a memory, a feeling,an experience that has brought me joy. These are friends that I would not trade for anything, and memories that I will cherish forever.

Oh Canada, again......

2009-02-24T12:52:00.000-07:00

So this past weekend I flew to Edmonton, Alberta Canada. What a cold and beautiful place. I traveled with the BEST people ever, Matt, Janelle, Jayla, Lyndsay and Julie from Cosmo Cricket. They are some of my very best friends. We attended an event for one of our Canadian Distributors, Memories Wholesale. There are so many great stories from this trip: Mullet Man at the hotel bar, photos at the mall, darts, the "sleeping man," and so many others. We laughed until we cried, I loved this trip and being able to see another amazing part of the world!

More of Team Italy and friends...

2009-02-10T12:07:00.003-07:00

Here are some more pictures from an amazing night!

Dinner with Team Italy

2009-02-10T11:59:00.000-07:00

As most of you know, this is the week for the Special Olympics here in Idaho! We are thrilled to be the host for these Winter Games. Last night we had the great opportunity to host the families of those athletes competing for Team Italy. We met them downtown in this really cool loft and fed them baked potatoes. We had a blast getting to know them and feeling the spirit of the games with them! Good luck this week Team Italy!!!!!

The Gospel of Jesus Christ is amazing...

2009-02-08T21:08:00.000-07:00

On February 7, 2009, Luis Antonio Carillo was baptized into the Church of Jesus Christ of latter Day Saints. It was at Family Home Evening that we first met Luis and invited him to hear the discussions and learn more about the Restored Gospel of Jesus Christ. I made a simple invite to him, "will you hear the lessons?" Luis did not even hesitate in his response. The missionaries have been teaching him in my home and they have brought with them such an incredible spirit. I have seen Luis change his life, even quit his job to find happiness in the Gospel. Our Savior has the ability to heal and answer prayers. Sharing the Gospel is one of the greatest gifts we can offer to those who surround us. People everyday are waiting for us to pray, have the faith and then act on those promptings. Share the Gospel, smile more, be kind, show charity and pray for those who hurt you. I love the Gospel!

I am back......

2009-02-04T13:30:00.000-07:00

I apologize that I have not posted in about a month now. My life has been great and stressful and busy all at once. With work and traveling to L.A. for Cha, church callings, family and friends, my time is so limited. I have neglected my blog, but I am back and ready to share my life with each of you. I promise to post more later, but here are some fun pictures of my recent adventures with some of the greatest and most loving people. I can officially share that I have been off ALL depression medications for over a month now and I am so happy about this decision I made to stop putting these chemicals into my body. Love ya, I will write more later.

Ava

2009-01-14T10:23:00.000-07:00

This post is dedicated to my niece Ava. She is adorable and cute and spoiled and everything in between. I found these pictures off of my sister's blog and decided to use them for my own. I sure do love you Ava and I love all of the fun and laughter you bring into my life, you are truly my little angel.

Dinner Party

2009-01-12T17:31:00.000-07:00

We are beginning a new tradition, each Sunday we will choose a new house to have dinner at! For the first week, we had it at my house. A BIG thanks to kady Cluff for helping Jeremy and I learn to cook Stuffed Peppers and Chocolate Chip Cheescake. Thanks to all that attended it would not have been the same without each of you! So here's to next week, Chicken Enchiladas at Shelley's house. Oh and a huge thanks to Shelley for giving home tours and fixing my bathroom toilet, I sure do love ya!

They make me HAPPY!!!!!

2009-01-11T23:22:00.000-07:00

My sister just sent me these photos and I cannot even begin to explain how happy they make me! I love my niece Ava and my nephews Andrew and Keaton! They posses so much love and have NEVER judged me. Whenever I go to see them, they all come running, screaming, "UNCLE JUSTIN!" I love that, I wish that we could all be little kids again in that aspect, be happy to see those we love, no matter the day or circumstance! I Thank my Heavenly Father for blessing my sisters with the most wonderful little souls, I love you Keaton, Ava and Andrew!!!!

First Snow in my house

2008-12-23T13:27:00.000-07:00

So it is just a day until Christmas Eve, and to be honest with you, it doesn't feel like it. The snow has been beautiful, really the first snow this year and it has come at a perfect time! Here is my house covered in snow! Melissa, Lance and the boys are all in Arizona this year and it is lonely without them. Their two boys Keaton and Andrew bring so much more to family gatherings. Well, here's to an ending of an old year and the soon to be new year 2009! Merry Christmas and a happy New Year.

The cutest thing ever....

2008-12-18T14:30:00.001-07:00

Yesterday my little sister Rachel brought over their little Persian (still without a name) to play for the day with Bella. As I was eating lunch and left my glass on the coffee table, this is the picture I captured of them both trying to steal a drink, SO CUTE!!! As I go into my home office each day, this is where I find Bella, on my desk, all curled up and sleeping, just waiting to be with me all day as I work!

Happy Birthday Kady!!!!

2008-12-18T14:23:00.000-07:00

Kady Cluff had a birthday!!! A bunch of us in the singles ward went to the Russian Bear in Eagle to eat dinner. It was definitely an acquired taste and I would not go back, but it was to support Kady and try something new! Here is the group of us that went.

Grateful for good friends

2008-12-16T08:28:00.000-07:00

Last night for FHE, we had a Christmas gift exchange and Brother and Sister Tingey's home. It was probably the best FHE I have been to in the Singles Ward, we had a blast!!!! The gift exchange was the best part about it because everyone wanted an other's gift and the exchanging went on and on! I am so thankful for great friends like Libby, Alex, Kelsie, Sarah and so many others. Thanks guys for helping me get through these seemingly endless times.

My Little Bella

2008-12-15T10:41:00.001-07:00

This weekend my little sister Rachel got a Persian kitten for Christmas from her husband Jason. I fell in love with theirs that I went out and got my own, she is a little girl and I named her Bella. She is the most adorable thing ever!!! She needs a bath because she is really dirty, so I will post some pictures of her all nice and clean! Here are some pictures of her, more to come. I have also put in bead board in my dining room, I will post pictures of it later, any ideas of what color to paint it???

More pictures of Utah...

2008-12-08T03:11:00.000-07:00

Here are more of the gorgeous pictures of the trip!

Trip To Salt Lake City!!!!

2008-12-08T02:54:00.000-07:00

This weekend, me, Kyle and Shelley, a.k.a. the "Road Trip Bandits" made another mini trip to Utah. Shelley received three tickets to the First Presidency Christmas Devotional and asked us to attend with her. We left Friday afternoon and arrived in Salt Lake City late Friday night. It is great traveling with both Kyle and Shelley because they are so easy going and in no rush to get or go anywhere.

We stayed with Shelley's friend Quinn right in Salt Lake. Her apartment overlooks the Gateway Mall downtown close to Temple Square. We all slept in the living room on blow-up mattresses and had a great time watching movies and talking. Saturday we slept in and then Kyle made us the BEST egg mcmuffins! We attended a live session at the Salt Lake Temple. Words cannot and will never describe the Spirit that I felt there in the House of The Lord! I had never been to a 'live" session of an endowment session and it was the greatest experience ever!!!! The artwork and detail in exquisite in every sense of the word. The feelings I received here in the Temple I will not ever forget!

After the Temple, we saw the lights on Temple Square, then went over to the Joseph Smith Building to watch the new Joseph Smith movie. Later that night I was able to meet up with Jaime Harker, a friend I met at a business trip in Canada this past March, we all went out to Applebees to eat.

On Sunday I met up with Jess and ate lunch with her, sorry I know, but she had some really great advice for me and I needed to hear it. At 5:00 pm we all met back up at Quinn's house and went to the Christmas Devotional, we sat pretty close to the front of the Tabernacle, I could see President Monson. What a fun trip, full of laughter, playing the "If" game and singing to our favorite songs. Thanks Kyle, Shelley, Jess, Quinn and Jaime for a memorable weekend in Utah!

Mini-Road Trip around Idaho

2008-11-17T16:16:00.001-07:00

On Saturday, me, Kyle, Shelley and Sherilyn took a little one day trip up to Idaho City, Sun Valley and some of the hot springs along the way. We had a blast just us four, definitely an experience to NEVER be forgotten. It was a rough week and I needed this much mini vacation. We left early on Saturday morning and arrived home around 2 am that same night.

We made our first stop in Idaho City to see the old graveyard there and to see some of the old buildings and sites. If you are looking for a place to see, I would recommend Idaho City, plus they have great hot springs! Along the way, we sang at the top of our lungs, played the "if" game (thanks Shelley for the idea) and ate junk food until we were sick.

The first hot springs was just outside of Lowman, so fun and so so hot! There was a cool little outhouse there just before the hot springs with a tub inside, seriously sick! We were the only ones there, what a great time we had! After that, we drove to see Stanley and Alturis Lakes, such amazing places to camp by the way. We were all starving, so we drove into Ketchum and ate Pizza and Ricos! We made one more stop at a local hot springs, just 10 miles or so outside of Sun Valley. We met some really interesting people there, this dude, his girlfriend and his 15 year old daughter. All I remember is that her name was Laurel and they were now residing in Twin Falls. We sat and laughed with them, it was a series of Jerry Springer moments, so white trash, but for a good laugh none the less.

Kyle and I laughed so much, our faces were basically hurting by 2 am we had laughed so darn much. I am so thankful for laughter and the simple pleasure it is to have it!

Picking which battle to fight?

2008-11-12T18:41:00.000-07:00

These past few days I have begun to realize that I, like many, are waging the war inside with ones self. My depression and focus have been completely off balance and I am desperately trying to get my life and spirit back on track! I am coming off of my current medication, Effexor and I am loosing my strength to win this seemingly endless battle with my mind. My doctor has lessened my dosage each month and next month begins the "cold turkey" method of NO medications until my current one works itself out of my system.

During this time of torture and sadness, I am learning of other methods of how to cope with this mental illness and it has not been easy. Today I couldn't even find the strength to get out of bed! it was so hard to think of depression and being unhappy, so I locked myself in my room, and tried to hide the hurt, sleep actually makes it worse. A close friend called me today and told me to meet her at a park, to take a walk and clear my mind. It was so comforting to speak with her and to hear of her advice. She put all of this into perspective that in essence, this is my own personal "Gethsemane."

I had never once before thought of it like that, but it brought me so much clarity and peace of mind. Just like our Savior did endure his trials of crucifixion, I too must overcome and learn from my own. I have been going to the Temple more frequently, twice in the last 4 days, in hopes that the Lord would reveal something to me and give me strength to overcome. It is going to be a long process, but I have faith I too can overcome my life's very own Gethsemane.

A crazy Halloween weekend!

2008-11-04T13:06:00.000-07:00

I realize that this post is late and Halloween has already come and gone for another year, but I wanted to post some pictures from this weekend. I had my first party at my house and it was a huge success. We had a bonfire going in my driveway, Daren Bundy grilling steaks and plenty of food inside to feed an army. It was good to be surrounded by friends and family, in all there were about 40 people that showed up!

Two of my best friends...

2008-11-04T13:00:00.000-07:00

Last night I got a call from Eric Leveque who just returned from his two year mission to Russia. it was hard to believe that his mission was already over and it has been two years since I last saw him. His twin Greg has also just returned home from Taiwan. They came to FHE and played dodge ball with our ward. So many great memories came to mind in just seeing them and talking to them. They both served honorable and faithful missions. I am grateful for them and their examples. Welcome home guys!!!!

My new idea

2008-10-30T17:44:00.000-06:00

I have been working on getting a side business up and running. You can view some of my pictures and ideas at www.jsdecoratingideasandmore.blogspot.com. If you are interested in me coming to your home or office and looking at your space to see how we cna make it more appealing, please e-mail me at quinn6201@juno.com, or call me at #208-859-5642.

It's time for Halloween!!!!!!

2008-10-28T00:33:00.000-06:00

Fall is definitely here. Tonight for FHE we went to the Tingey's house to carve pumpkins. I love our ward and the close friends I have made there. Life is great with such amazing people to surround yourself with! I didn't care a pumpkin, but had such a great time looking at everyone else's pumpkins and awesome creations. I basically ate, laughed and caused havoc tonight, sorry Tingeys!!!

Simply Out of Control...

2008-10-25T16:18:00.000-06:00

A week ago, Krista came home from Utah for a visit. Late Friday night I met up with her, Jess and their mom for some good food and laughs at IHOP in Meridian. All I can say is that these three are some of my most favorite people of all time. The lives they live are truly a fairytale. Always shopping, vacationing to Mexico, or just being them. They always make me laugh with their outrageous personalities and humor. Thanks for the great weekend guys!!!! Oh and how can you forget their dog Abbey, they take her everywhere!

A new business idea......

2008-10-21T14:20:00.001-06:00

For years now, I have found that I love to create, design, make better the places I live in and visit and see. My imagination runs wild when it comes to color, spaces and designing. I have always wanted to start my own business helping people beautify and change their homes. I want to go into people's homes and help them re-arrange and decorate. It would cost the client no money for me to come and look at the space, create a plan, then see that it gets done. The only part that I would charge, is my actual time that I spend in their home re-arranging. Any thoughts on this??? Would it really work? Is anyone interested in giving me a shot? Let me know, I would enjoy coming to your house, looking at the spaces and furniture you already have, then making the transformation!!!!! I want to do this so bad, really I do, but have been so afraid to make it happen. So today I am taking a stand against fear and doubt, you do the same!

I'm getting a gree thumb!

2008-10-20T12:52:00.000-06:00

This past weekend I went to the nurseries with my mom in search of some plants and flowers for my house. I found these beautiful ornamental grasses. They are not very tall right now since they were cut back for the winter. Come next Spring they will be tall and gorgeous. It was fun to help my mom plant on Saturday. This could be a potential obesssion, plants, landscaping and going to the local nursery!

More of my house!

2008-10-15T00:54:00.000-06:00

I am completely loving being on my own! Putting my house in order consumes my time and money for that matter, but it is, in a way healing to me. I moved my office home today and I am going to enjoy working at home and not to mention that money saved in gas. Here are a few pics of my new home office and the drapes I put up in my dinning room and living room!

New Chatterbox and 7gypsies!

2008-10-10T09:09:00.001-06:00

So yes, I made the acrylic album you are seeing. They are not the greatest photos, but I did the best I could. Most of you know that I work for Chatterbox and 7gypsies, two of the most well known scrapbooking lines in the industry. I am in International Sales and I love my position with the company. I sold only Chatterbox, but since the acquisition of the company in December of 2007, I am now selling 7gypsies, which I LOVE.

Whenever we release new products, I get to try them out and use them. This is a great selling tool for me, since I am not an avid scrapbooker. I have learned many new techniques and tips over the years. Here is one of our new Acrylic Albums from 7gypsies. It is a NEW product that we released at this years Cha Summer Show in Chicago. I was not sure how to us it, how to sell it, or what anyone else would use it for. I am obsessed with acrylic now, and don't think you could talk me into using paper and the original scrapbooking albums. If you are interested in our products, please visit: www.sevengypsies.com and or www.chatterboxinc.com.

I'm slowly making progress on my house!

2008-10-07T08:46:00.000-06:00

So I have officially been a homeowner for a week now. I think that the newness of this experience has worn off and I am beginning to settle into my home. It has been fun entertaining and having friends and family over to visit. My own space, my own designs and my own privacy. For the most part, I am all moved in. I have begun to put nails in the wall to hang pictures and dust off all of my decorations that I have been accumulating for the past few years, waiting for this experience of having my own house. Here are a few pictures of the inside and what I have been able to accomplish in a week's time.

The BIG move!

2008-09-30T14:02:00.000-06:00

On Monday, September 29th I closed on my house. It was not a scary as I had made it out to be, actually it was harmless and easy. Everyone tells you there are stacks upon stacks of papers to sign, I had only about 40 or so. Lance came with me to closing, he has been such an amazing help and blessing in all of this. He has had so much patience in helping me understand all of the financial terms jargon that I have never before heard. I cleaned out my entire storage unit last night and got my kitchen table from Reg. Thanks to Kyle, Daren, Kevin, Mandy, Shannon, MY MOM, Emily, J.P. and Jessica, I was able to move it all into my house. All I have left is my couch and chair, and all of the stuff at my parents house.

In the process of moving in and budgeting, I have learned to restrain myself from buying on impulse like I used to. The lack of having enough money was never an issue, but now I am finding myself shopping cheap and comparing prices at the grocery store in hope of saving even the smallest amount. Today I went to buy toilet paper, trash bags and dish soap. I think that I stood in the isle trying to find the cheapest brand I could. If anyone has any really good tips for budgeting as a homeowner, pass them along!

Sara Evans Concert

2008-09-15T08:55:00.001-06:00

Friday we went to the Sara Evans concert here in Nampa. It was me, Jessica, Melissa, Lance, Reg and Iris. It was at the outside amphitheater at the Idaho Center in Nampa. It was a free concert and you had to win the tickets to attend. Free concerts are a magnet for white trash. We saw tons of fat chicks in tight clothing, mullets and endured second hand smoke like I had never before experienced. We had pretty good seats, 40 or 50 rows back I would imagine. The two opening bands sucked, so annoying. Sara Evans was amazing in every sense of the word! Iris was so freaking hilarious, we sure do love her! She was putting gum, trash, spoons and all sorts of stuff in the girls purse in front of us, everyone around us got a kick out of her.

So as we are listening to Sara Evans sing, this chic in front of my little sister Rachel began to cuss her out. I stood up instantly, got in her face and told her that she had better sit down. I am really protective of my sisters, and nobody cusses them out. This nasty girl began to get in my face, I think that I heard her drop the "F" bomb about a hundred times. Next Iris stood up and I thought for sure she would drop her like a fly. Iris played in pretty cool though. After a few minutes, this girl's father stood up, came over and grabbed her to sit down. He acted as if this had occurred frequently for him. I was embarrassed for both of them. All of the sudden, the dad was glaring at me and trying to pick a fight with me! It was an exciting night to say the least!

They accepted my offer....

2008-09-09T08:37:00.000-06:00

My new house!!!

So last Friday I sent in a counter offer on my house to see if they would come down a few thousand dollars on it. Since it was over the weekend, they had until 5 p.m. yesterday to accept or counter my offer of $135,000. So as you can imagine, Monday was a long day for me. I would check my phone and my e-mails to see if Shelley had left me a message about my house. On the offer, we gave them until Sept. 8th to counter my offer or accept it. If they did not respond before 5 p.m. the offer would expire. So five o'clock rolls around and I hear nothing. I was pretty bummed, then at about 5:15 my brother-in-law Lance calls me to say they had accepted my offer! I just about dropped to the floor!!!! The original asking price was $139,000, and I got it for $135,000. My closing date is September 30th!

I am looking for a fridge and a washer and dryer. If anyone knows of someone who is getting ride of these items, PLEASE let me know!

Beginning Pre-School...

2008-09-05T09:31:00.000-06:00

Keaton is finally old enough to begin pre-school, so crazy to think. I got home from work yesterday evening and the first thing he told me was, "uncle Justin, look at my Diego backpack!" He really is the cutest little guy ever! He made a picture of his family and house for his first day. Keaton then proceeded to list off all of his friends in his class. Little Andrew seems to go wherever Keaton does, he's his little shadow. Here are two pics for his first day of school.

My hopefully new BIG purchase...

2008-09-04T16:11:00.000-06:00

So I have been looking for about the last 6-8 months for my own home. After a long wait and extensive searching, I have it narrowed down to just one and here it is. While you are not able to see, it has a huge backyard, perfect for a new dog! If all goes well, I should be in at the end of September!

BSU Football.....

2008-09-03T22:36:00.000-06:00

I realize that the first game for BSU football was almost a week ago, but I wanted to post some pictures about the game. A bunch of us in our singles ward had a taco tailgaiting party at Ann Morrison park before the game. Mike Draper was kind enough to make all of us his beer seasoned tacos!!!! The game was hot, sunny and out of control! I sat with Courtney Lebeau, Pat her boyfriend and kaci Wolfe. Maci sat right above us and we had a great time throwing ice and food at Alex Serra and Mike Draper down in front of us, sorry guys! We all had a blast eating corndogs, nachos and drinks galore. We won 49-7, so yeah it was not a close game, but we had a blast cheering on our team. GO BSU!

Im going to be an uncle, again...

2008-09-02T13:45:00.000-06:00

So last week were were all sitting in my parent's living room and my sister announced that her and Lance were going to throw a party next April. We all just sat there and were like, "ok?" Then Melissa perked up and shouted, "I'm PREGNANT!" This made much more sense and gave us reason to celebrate. We are so excited for her to have baby #4!!!!!

Keaton and Andrew

2008-08-21T10:45:00.000-06:00

Keaton and Andrew are growing so fast. It surprises me how smart and observant they both are. My sister Melissa posts on her blog "kid quotes" each week, Keaton says the cutest things... Here are a few things that he has said this week. I just love both of them and really thank my Heavenly Father for both of them.

Kids Quotes of the Week:

We were on our way to church and we asked Keaton why we don't watch t.v. on Sundays and he simply said,"Because we think about Jesus and that makes him so sweet."

"Andrew! Fold your arms for the prayer right now!"

"Mom and Dad, I was so happy that Andrew slept in my room last night!"

"Andrew can you be happy and smile in church? Everyone is here and waiting for Jesus."

"Jesus lives in the mountains of course and he eats Farleys for his special treat"

This made my day....

2008-08-19T15:42:00.000-06:00

So I have been really down lately, depressed I guess you could say. For those of you who really know me, my depression comes and goes. When it arrives, it says, lingers, never to leave. I was sitting at work and I was looking at Melody's blog and she had this picture of me! She had posted it under, some of her favorite summer memories. Me, really, I was apart of her happiness, her experience, her memory? This completely made my day! I thank my Heavenly Father for friends like her, and her simple kindness. A simple picture brought so much happiness, I was amazed.

So in order to bring more happiness, please post a favorite picture or memory you have had with me, recent or past. I guess that I have forgotten all of the good in my life, the simplicity of friends, laughing and family trips. I would really love to hear from you!

NEW JANEY MAC....

2008-08-13T15:47:00.001-06:00

Two of my very closest friends, Lynette and Debbie started their own company, Janey Mac. They specialze in high end cards, invitations and unique party packages. Some of the themes include: Baby boy and Girl, Wedding and Celebrations. Please visit their website: http://janeymacpress.com/collections.asp if you are looking for the greatest gift or invitations ever!!! Here are a few of their excellent and personalized invitations. If you are looking for more information, please contact Debbie and Lynette at customerservice@janeymacpress.com, or by telephone at 208-939-6633.

Summer trip to Stanley Lake

2008-08-12T16:35:00.000-06:00

This past weekend we had a Beard Family reunion at Stanley Lake. My mom is so great to reserve the exact same camping site for us for the past 10 years or so. It is at the end of the road, the last two, right on the sandy beach overlooking the gorgeous mountains. My mom seriously has the entire week perfectly planned, from fun activities to the yummy food to the clean-up and take down, we sure do love you mom for all of the hard work you put into this!

There were so many of us that it was often chaos, but we always had a good laugh around the campfire at night watching Grant master the art of popping Jiffy Pop popcorn over a fire!!! I got plenty of sun sitting out on the beach all day. It was soo great to come home and shower and wear clean clothes. For those of you who know me and know me well, I hate getting dirty!!!

Rafting down the Payette River

2008-07-29T09:00:00.000-06:00

So I have the greatest group of friends who are willing to do just about anything and take on any adventure. There were about 50 of us who took on the Payette River. We met up at the church at 4:45 pm and drove to Banks. We had about 6 large rafts and many eager rafters, just ready to jump right in. We had the best raft and the most fun people: me, Kyle, Sarah, Tyler, Mike, Jessica, Iris, Kyle Butterfield and his girlfriend, one other girl and our guide at the back of the boat. I decided to ride the "bull" which is the very front of the boat, right in front of all the action.

The beginning was slow, but it picked up shortly. With each rapid cam more and more excitement and screaming. We were the "pirate" raft and voted the most "Savage" by all the other boats. We would close in on another raft, jump in and push them all over the edge. We laughed and just had the greatest time telling jokes. We were ruthless in wanting to soak everyone else, and we did just that. There were a few times that the size and strength of the waves knocked me flat on my back an into the raft, like I folded in half!

There was a raft full of about 6 girls and 1 poor guy. One of the heaviest girls in their raft fell out and they had to pull her back in. She was beginning to panic as she floated down the river. As this skinny little guy attempted to pull her in, he began to choke her and he grabbed onto her life jacket and began to pull. She was not going to come easily, he pulled and pulled, and we laughed harder and harder, this was so funny! Finally he got her onto the side of the raft and she was flopping all around trying to get back into the raft, I seriously laughed so hard. When we got out of the river we enjoyed greasy chicken, brownies and watermelon.

Twin Falls roadtrip....

2008-07-23T08:46:00.000-06:00

Last night the singles ward planned a trip for all of us to see the new Temple in Twin Falls. We met at the church at 5:00 pm and carpooled down there. Krista and Jessica rode down with me to make the two hour trip. Krista and I laughed the entire way, so funny! We laughed about her and Michell's big tire blow out on the way home from Utah. I could just picture the two of them, sitting on the side of the rode, waiting for someone to rescue them, not your typical girls I would say! So many good memories with Krista, most of which still bring me to tears laughing.

The Temple was gorgeous. This was my very first time taking a tour through a Temple before it is to be dedicated. We had so much fun, especially with a photo shoot with Sarah and Kyle after the tour. Later that night we went to Chilis to eat. We got home at about 12:30 am, I am so so tired today, but it was well worth the trip to Twin Falls to see the Temple.

Summertime in Chicago!!!!

2008-07-21T22:36:00.000-06:00

Mindy and I, love her!

Me, Carrie and Mel

Fine dining in Chicago!

Pink hair ROCKS!!!!

This past weekend we packed up and flew to Chicago for Cha Summer in Rosemont. It was me, Kathy, Carrie and Mel that went to represent Chatterbox at the show. I love the girls at the office I work with, so here's to them and the the great memories this show brought. We met up with the Ultra-Pro team and the sales reps from Utah. I also had a chance to hang-out with Matt and Jaime in downtown Chicago. Walking around, souvenir shopping at Walgreens and Wacker Street were the best of times. I love these guys and I am so grateful for their friendships.

My Best Friend's Wedding

2008-06-22T21:37:00.000-06:00

Yesterday I had the opportunity to attend the wedding of my best friend, Eric Pedersen in Kennewick, Washington. Two months ago Eric called me to say that he was getting married June 21, 2008 and that he wanted me to be the best man. I was both shocked and honored with this news.

On Friday I had planned to leave with Eric's brohters Brad and Karl at around 2 pm that afternoon. As I was driving there, Brad called me and told me that Karl had missed his flight into Boise, and that we would not be leaving until 10 pm that night! So I called, Debbie, Eric's mom to tell her of the latest news. So to make a long story short, I decided that I was just going to drive myself to the wedding because I did not want to miss the dinner and festivities Friday night. For thos eof you who know me, I fall asleep easily in cars when traveling, so I was nervouse to drive alone for four hours.

The drive was relaxing, I was able to think and contemplate and to just be alone. Oregon is beautiful, Washington so green. I didn't fall alseep and made it just in time for the dinner later that night. It was Tina's large family of 11 and Eric's small family and I that attended the dinner. It was very simple and refreshing. We had green salad, rolls and pasta. As the best man, I was asked to take ten minutes to tell everyone about Eric and some of the best times of our friendship. I told of the time when I went to take him to the MTC in Provo with his family and of our scouting high adventure when we slept the night on the side of a mountain in our man made contraption.

After the dinner, Eric and I were able to habg-out and remember good ol times from when we were in high school. It was great to laugh again, and ti just be with my best friend! I had forgotten so many of the cray times until Eric would tell a story and take me back so many years ago. I am so thankful for him and his friendship over the years.

I was invited to attend the Temple Sealing at the Columbia River Temple in Kennewick, Washington, it was perhaps one of the most incredible experiences of my life! We had the luncheon at PF Changs, and then drove another two hours to Ellensburg for the reception. We stood in line for two hours and greeted people who came to celebrate with Eric and Tina. To both of them, thank you for allowing me to share in this incredible and unforgettable experience!

Father's Day...

2008-06-16T09:59:00.001-06:00

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Yesterday was Father's Day! I love my dad so much, and even though I am not one to express how I feel towards him, I want him to know how much he is appreciated and loved. My father has the biggest heart and capacity to care for others. After church we went over to my uncle Spencer's hose for a Father's Day bbq.

Life in the Single Ward.....

2008-06-11T08:45:00.000-06:00

So I have the greatest group of friends. Sarah, Kyle, Daren, Kev just to name a few. Every Monday night we have Family Home Evening with the singles ward. This Monday we had it at Brother and Sisiter Tingey's house. Despite the clouds, wind and rain, we had an outside pool party. We swam in the rain, played grass volleyball, rode the ever popular zip line, had a bonfire, LAUGHED a whole lot and ate until we could not possibly eat any longer. It is an awkward time in our lives, so it is good to have close friends to spend those moments with. Here's to sweaty brows, baby wipes and J phil Q!!!!!! To my best friends that have helped me to learn, grow and find myself.

Trying to forgive.....

2008-06-09T08:44:00.000-06:00

As I was looking through some old photos, I found some that I had barried and seemingly forgotten. Photos that brought back so many sad and confusing feelinfs and memories. Kip and I were best friends, we worked together, hung-out with the same goups of friends and even went to school togehter. We were basically inseperable for two years. I never saw it coming, but he grew cold and distant for no reason at all. I had sacrificed so much for him and for me and received nothing in the end but bitter and hateful feelings. I am still left wondering why he wont answer my phone calls, or even acknowledge that I am here and still wanting to be his friend. Forgiving him for being so hateful is something that I have not been able to yet do, and apart of me wonders if I will EVER be able to forgive Kip for telling me that he didnt want me to be apart of his life anymore! I pray for the ability to forgive him, but it has been difficult and impossible. What am I supposed to be learning from this experience, forgiveness, patience, what? If anyone who reads this post has any great advice, please share it, it's much appreciated!

Ava is walking!!!!!

2008-06-05T08:34:00.000-06:00

Ava has done it, she has learned to walk all on her own. We are so proud of her. Here are just some of my favorite pictures of her. She is the cuttest little girl I have ever seen.

Carrie Underwood....

2008-05-28T13:28:00.000-06:00

On Sunday, May 25th Krista and I went to see Carrie Underwood. She is talented, gorgeous and amazing in everyway! Here are some of the pictures from our experience, and yes it was also a hairspray convention, so so funny!

Memorial Day Celebration...

2008-05-27T09:39:00.001-06:00

Yesterday was Memorial Day! Not only is it a day to celebrate those men and women who served, fought and died for us, but it was a paid vacation away from work. Here are just a few pictures of the family as we had a big dinner and get to together. It was a lazy day of slepping in, watching movies and being with the family! All in all it was a great weekend. Tomorrow I will post the pictures and live videos I took on Sunday at the Carrie Underwood concert!!!!!

My Little Angels.....

2008-05-22T16:00:00.000-06:00

Can I just say how much I love Ava, Keaton Andrew and Madalynn even though she is not here with us. My older sister Melissa wrote a post on her blog yesterday about loosing Madalynn and how hard it was on her and still is. I know that Ava, Keaton and Andrew were with Madalynn before each came to earth. Melissa, Madalynn told Keaton and Andrew to come to you as their mother because they knew they would be so loved and cared for! To each of them, I love you so much. We never know when life will change, or when a loved one will be taken from us, so tell someone, everyone that you love them if you feel it. I have made it a daily goal to tell everyone that randomly comes into my thoughts that I love and appreciate them. The Lord gives us impressions for a purpose, use them to bless the lives of others! Go ahead and send someone a message that you love them!

NEW Chatterbox Artsylicious has arrived!

2008-05-22T11:37:00.000-06:00

As most of you know, I work for the BEST company and we have the BEST brand in the industry... Melody Ross, founder of Chatterbox has designed a new collection known as Artsylicious and it is available NOW!!!!!! Here are some of the images of this AMAZING new Chatterbox products! If you want this, go to local scrapbook store, and if they do not have it, please visit www.chatterboxinc.com and we will take care of you. You can also visit Melody's blog and find her products and designs there, www.melodyross.typepad.com!

Summer is Finally here....

2008-05-16T08:40:00.001-06:00

Just another day in the park...

The weather here in Boise has been absolutley beautiful, summer is on it's way! Yesterday it was 83 degrees so I decided to leave work early and go to Merrill's Park in Eagle with my two sisters and their kids. We went to McDonald's first and got Happy Meals and went an ate them on a blanket at the park. It was fun to go to the river with Keaton, Andrew and Ava and throw rocks into the water!

The Baptism of Adam Frost

2008-04-16T18:33:00.000-06:00

On Tuesday, April 15th, one of my best friends, Adam Frost was baptized into the Church of Jesus christ of Latter Day Saints. It was two months ago that he walked into the singles ward and asked to learn more... One Sunday, after Sunday School, as we were talking, this new kid introduced himself as Adam Frost and told us he wasn't a member of the Church, but was interested in learning more about the "Mormons." As we got to talking with Adam, I really saw his potential and really felt a stron impression that he would soon join the church. As time flew by, Adam met with the Elders and I fellowshipped. Soon Adam began to realize that he could not live without the Church. He was challenged by Elders to read and pray about the Book of Mormon and the principles they were teaching him. After one of the first times that he prayed, he received the answer from our Heavenly Father that he was to be baptized on April 15th! Adam loves the Book of Mormon. As with all converts, Adam was tempted and tried as his date of conversion neared. I thank Adam, the Elders, Sisiter and my Heavenly Father for the chance to be apart of Adam's conversion!!! I love the gospel, my Savior Jesus christ and the chance to become like our Heavenly Father.

Precious Ava Kay Laney

2008-04-09T19:45:00.000-06:00

For some reason I feel the need to post about my neice Ava. I love her so much and she has brought so much joy to our family. She recently turned one! everytime I see her my heart melts, she truly is a gift from our Father in Heaven. we are so blessed to see her learn and grow and become her own person. So to Ava, I just want you to know how much I love you.

My Adventure To Toronto, Canada

2008-04-04T11:26:00.000-06:00

This past week I had the opportunity to travel to Toronto, Canada for my job. At first I was nervous to fly and travel internationally alone, but it ended up being the best experience I have had in a long time. The flights to and from the event were long, but I met some great people along the way. Seeing all types of nationalities opened my eyes to an entirely new world!

I met up with Janelle, one of our designers. Janelle is absolutely AMAZING, and I had so much fun traveling, teaching and laughing with her, she truly is an inspiration to me! I also became such close friends with Jaime Harker and Matt with Bo Bunny. The four of us laughed, had pajama parties, watched some not so great movies (thanks Matt) and shopped for the best Canadian Chocolate at Walmart. I tried Humpty Dumpty Ketchup chips for the first time. It was a great 4 days out of the country, experiences that I will not soon forget. Thanks Janelle, Jaime and Matt for the memories!!!

The best part of Chatterbox

2008-02-22T21:24:00.001-07:00

Every six months the scrapbooking industry has two large tradeshows, Cha Winter and Summer. This past week we went to sunny Los Angeles, California where the life is calling my name. I have always had a great love for southern California and I would love to live there and live that sort of life. Me, Brad, Carrie, Kathy and Mel were all able to attend the show and had a great time spending a week with eachother. I have so many close friends in the industry that I only get to see every six months when a show rolls around.

We stayed at the Anaheim Hilton Hotel! Brad and I were stuck on the 13th floor where the beds were hard and the rooms and furniture looked as if they came from the 60's. Cynthia and Jeanne are two of my very best friends, I truly appreciate their loyalty and support. Good laughs, long days, great food and sleepless nights spent talking. We finally were able to meet our 7Gypsies and Ultra-Pro families. Mindi, Amber, Raj, Paula, Debbie, there are just to many to name. We truly are apart of the best team ever!

I have been away for so long.......

2008-01-21T09:08:00.000-07:00

I apologize to those who have come to my blog for the past two months and seen nothing new to read. Life has been really busy and I have not allowed myself the time to post and write about what is going on in my life. Work is crazy busy, as we prepare for a big trade show in 3 weeks in sunny Los Angeles, California. We recently moved into a new office out in Nampa and have enjoyed making it feel like our new home.

I think that the main reason I have been away from blogging for so long is due to the fact that I am trying to get my life in order, this means so many things though. From work, school (wanting to go back), family and trying to find a social life. With the coming of this new year, setting goals and keeping them have been on my mind. I'm wanting to become that great person that I know is just screaming to come out and meet the rest of the world.

This last week, my very best friend drove down to Boise from Rexburg. He came down to see our good friend Dan Caine get baptized and to see me of course. Being able to spend time with him allowed for me to remember the importance of friendship, it was so great to see him and to hear his laugh again, it had been six months since I had last seen him. After the baptism, Craig, Jennifer, Krista, Lance, Mel and I all went to eat at GoodWood, we had plenty of good laughs!!! We sat and lauged at Craig tell him life story. I promise to be better at posting this year, and over the next few months to get back on track.

Getting Ready for Christmas....

2007-11-27T09:10:00.000-07:00

Now that Thanksgiving is over, the only thing left to do is enjoy the month of December and begin the countdown until Christmas. I love this time of year, the weather is freezing, yet in Boise we NEVER get snow and it's a great time to enjoy with family. Brad and I found these huge stockings in the office so we thought it would be funny to take some crazy pictures wearing them, so freakin' funny!!!

This year I decided that I would send out Christmas cards since I have never before done them. I had always wanted to, but just never found the time or motivation. So to all of you out there, the cards are on their way.

Got to get back to work, I will post later!!!!

The puffy face...

2007-11-20T14:09:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning to a swollen face!!!! It frightened me and made me laugh all at once. About a year ago I was experiencing some type of allergic reaction to some unknown substance. I went to two skin and allergy specialists here in Boise but to no avail, they found NOTHING! I would go to bed perfectly healthy and wake up a few hours later covered in hives and a puffy face. So begins the trend for the second time, atleast I hope not.

Life has been sort of hectic and crazy these days. Family, WORK, friends and my spiritual self are all struggling right now. Maybe all of the stress and unknowns in my life are contributing to my allergic reactions? I slept in this morning in hopes that a little rest would make it better, not so easy. I drug myself into work with big lips and a double chin, so funny even for me to say.

For Thanksgiving me, my mom and dad are all driving to Rexburg to be with Reg, Ava and Jason. Melissa, Lance and the boys are going to Utah to be with the Snyders. It should be fun and adventurous, six of us in a tiny apartment in Rexburg for five days!

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The topic of Religion.....

2007-11-06T12:54:00.000-07:00

Why is religion such a sensitive subject? Why is it that religion is the center of so much controversy? Lately I have begun to ask myself this very same question. It seems as if so many people are concerned with "what" religion or church they belong to. Why does this matter? We need to remember that we all have the right to worship freely and as we see fit. We are to consumed with the idea and belief that it matters where you go to church and what religion you belong to.

I have some really close friends that are not LDS, yet they are some of the VERY best people and friends that I have ever had. They don't judge and they love unconditionally despite our difference in religion. I feel so safe around their family and I love the peace I feel when I am in their home. So why would someone care that I am spending much of my free time with them and learning from them? This is the idea that I am having the most difficulty understanding. We become so preoccupied with what others believe or don't believe that we loose sight of who that person really is and the potential they have.

I understand that our beliefs differ, yet I also realize that these same differences have made us the best of friends. Who really does care if your neighbor is Catholic, Baptist, Methodist, Christian, does it really matter? I am beginning to believe that it's not what church we belong to that matters, it's what's in our heart and the person we truly are. I am in no way saying that what I believe to be untrue. Each of us has the freedom and right to believe and worship how we choose.

Ode to the black Porsche...

2007-10-31T11:07:00.000-06:00

SOLD BUT NOT FORGOTTEN.....

For those of you that know me, and know me well, I drove a black Honda Civic hatchback for the past three years and loved every minute of it. Well yesterday I sold it!!!! I advertised it on Craig's list and in less than 72 hours she was gone. Within the first 30 minutes of having it up for sale, I received 2 calls. I was amazed at how fast it went. I am excited for the change and excitement of car shopping and buying a new car, yet I was sad to see it drive away with a new owner. The kid that bouhgt it just lit up when he saw it, that's just how I felt when I bought it years ago! I have spent numerous hours car shopping and riding around with Brad in his Porsche looking for the perfect car for me.

It's a debate between an SUV with poor gas mileage, or a small car that gets great miles on the road? I have no idea what I will end up purchasing, maybe you can help! If you have heard of any good cars out there, please send me the picture and the link to view the car you are referring to, any information helps!!!! I will post a picture of the new car when I have finally bought it. Wish me luck, I am going to need it...

I hate being sick.....

2007-10-23T11:03:00.000-06:00

I have had a terrible cold for the past few days and I hate being sick more than anything! I would rather have the flu than a sore throat and a runny nose, it's the absolute worst. Life has been hectic lately, work, family, friends, all of it. I am trying to find a balance in juggling all of these aspects of my life. I am so thankful for friends that are a support and give great advice. I was having a conversation about "religion" the other night with a friend and he told me to "not give up something you know for something you don't know." As I was driving home, I began to really internalize what he said and thought, what is truth and how do you know you've found it? Truth is exactly what I am searching for and wanting so badly.

My depression is getting worse and I was just about to give up last week. For the last twelve years I have continued to wonder why I suffer from depression. No doctor or medication has made it better for me. I am waiting to see Dr. Hoopes, a well-known psychologist here in Boise and I am hoping that he has the answers and solutions I am looking for. Late one night I received a phone call from my best friend who is at BYU-Idaho and he offered to drive to Boise for the weekend just to be with me, I was blown away at his kindness and friendship. We spoke for about an hour and he gave some great advice and helped calm me.

My sister sent me this picture of Keaton in his new bath towel and it made me SMILE, I am so grateful for my little nieces and nephews and for their innocent spirits. To my family, I truly do love you, and I am also very thankful for good friends that continue to help me get through this difficult time in my life!

This is MY LIFE.....

2007-10-02T19:53:00.000-06:00

I was inspired by one of my closest friends to think of and post all of the things that are such a huge part of my life. Above I posted a few pictures that are an everyday part of my life and who I am. I have really been afraid to post what it is I really am feeling. Afraid to put myself out there and allow others to read about me, my hopes, my dreams, my weaknesses. Alot has been on my mind lately, my job, marriage and the church. I am struggling with finding truth and what truly makes me happy. There are those friends in life that drain us of everything we have and fail to give anything back. They call us only when they need something, when they need money or have a favor to ask. I am taking a stand against these types of friends that do nothing but bring us down. To these types of people, I will NOT allow you to use me. There is one such friend that I have done all that I could possibly do to fix our friendship, but he gives nothing back? No returned phone calls, nothing! This is in area of my life that I have been trying to make right, but nothing seems to work, does he even care? From this time forward, I am taking a stand to move on with my life!

Tonight I had the opportunity to pray with my nephew Keaton who is two. His innocence and love is something I wish I had. It was so amazing to see him kneel down and pray to his Heavenly Father. He is such a HUGE part of my happiness, my life. What makes up your life? What drives you to be better? What are you searching for? I am taking a stand against my depression, I have to!

This is MY LIFE.....

My family

My nephews Keaton and Andrew

My two neices Madalynn and Ava

My Savior Jesus Christ

My Heavenly Father

Finding what is truth

Finding the truth

Sorry for not writting!

2007-10-01T10:41:00.000-06:00

What a crazy few weeks it has been. Work is actually enjoyable for the first time in a long time, mainly because of the amazing people that I work with! On Friday we ordered in Chinese food from Quik Wok and ate as a team, F.F.L's are my favorite part of the week. After we ate, we all gathered into the "war room" and made Christmas layouts, so fun by the way. It was great for us to laugh, eat junk food and watch "The Island." Mel brought this movie about cloning humans and it was absolutely fascinating! Later that evening, I went over to Brad and Kari's house to finish the end of the movie. By the way, I want to thank both Brad and Kari for being such wonderful people and friends to me, a good friend is what makes life worth living. They both have given me some much needed advice. Brad and I have this joke that I am going to occupy their guest room until they give me my loan to buy a house, he tells me only in my wildest dreams...

My depression is seemingly getting worse. I get deeper and deeper into self despair and I cannot snap out of it. When I was at the movie store on Friday, I ran into some good friends that have lived through the HELL of depression. They both know what it feels like to be so low that you cannot find a reason or the strength to get out of bed. The recommended a book for me to read, The Mood Cure, by Julia Ross. She gives advice on what simple things we can do to change our moods. To the Christensen's I give so much thanks!!! Things like exercise and eating right can drastically effect our attitudes. So I am challenging myself to cut out all wheat and sugars to see if they really do indeed effect my depression, I also went running last night for the first time in about 6 months, it felt so great to exercise again. This week is going to be a good one, I can just feel it!!!!

This weeks goals:

NO SUGAR, I am already so addicted...

NO WHEAT

Daily exercise (atleast 30 min per day)

Service

Sleep more (8 hours per day)

Eat more fresh fruits and veggies

Another weekend...

2007-09-24T10:09:00.000-06:00

So nothing really exciting happened over the weekend. I found out that Elder Husemann, one of my closest friends in being transferred to LaGrand Oregon next Wednesday, I am going to miss him so much! I have learned that change has NEVER been easy for me and I hate letting go of good friendships, it just sucks. It's so much easier to realize that someone cares when they are actually there in person, I have a hard time realizing this same concept when I am unable to see them everyday. I wish him the best of luck and he will be missed so much!!!!!

So over the weekend I spent some time with the Elders and we had the most awkward moments, I cannot even remember them all, but I know they happened. On Saturday morning I took Elder Sawtell and Leith to eat at Merritts down on Garden City. It's the most white trash place I have ever eaten at, yet it feels like home. For those of you that have been there, can't you just picture it? Later that evening I took Elders Husemann and Fisher to eat at Johnny Carinos, and boy was that awkward. We laughed so hard and I'm sure that the tables near us thought we were absolutely crazy! I love to laugh and I have found that there is no better way to relieve stress, than to LAUGH.....

I hate going to the doctor....

2007-09-19T15:40:00.000-06:00

Today I went into my family doctor to have my depression medication regulated. Last night I had a conversation with a close friend that really set me off. It had been about a week since I had last heard from him, so I decided to send him a text message. I jokingly asked him if he had gone off and finally found a girlfriend? His reply back to me was "why, are you freaking out because I have been unresponsive to you?" I was completely thrown back by his remarks. It's just little things like this that seem to throw my depression into overdrive. Stupid I know, but so real all at the same time. I tried to not get mad at him and simply apologized for wanting to be a good friend and get one in return. I am always the one to apologize it seems, even when I have nothing to apologize for. Does this sound familiar to anyone else?

So back to my doctor's visit, she told me that there is better medication out there for me so that I can get back to a life of normalcy, I wanted to believe him, but so much of me just wanted to shake her and say, "I'm always going to be depressed!" I know that it's wrong of me to think this way, but it is just the way that I have thought for the past 12 years as I have tried and tried to cope with depression. She also advised that I go and see a Psychologist for further testings. I have never been fond of telling my sob stories to a complete stranger. Has anyone out there had a good experience in seeing a Psychologist? She also told me to cut out all of the sugar in my diet and EXERCISE!!!!!!! We will begin today with some of the changes she advised and see what happens in the weeks and months to come.

Gratitude...

2007-09-18T15:41:00.000-06:00

I was reading another blog today and it really caught me eye. The article was on the importance of having gratitude and being grateful for what we already have. We find that we are always wanting more and never satisfied with what we have been already given.

Gratitude

"Gratitude requires awareness and effort, not only to feel it but to express it. Gratitude is a Spirit-filled principle. It opens our minds to a universe permeated with the richness of a living God. Through it, we become spiritually aware of the wonder of the smallest things, which gladden our hearts with their messages of God's love...Gratitude inspires happiness and carries divine influence."

I loved this quote because it made me think of all the things in my life that I am most grateful for. A few days ago I called a good friend's mom just say how "grateful" I was for her raising an amazing son that had a tremendous role in helping me realize the importance of the Gospel in my life. It was because of his friendship that I decided to get active in the Church again, and over a period of time the Lord allowed me to see the goodness that lies within each of us. I will forever be thankful to my friend for helping me find the happiness I had been missing!!!!

Just some of the things I am Grateful for....

My family

The two amazing sisters that I have, and their husbands

My Father in Heaven

My Savior Jesus Christ

Good friends

My health

Sunshine

Keaton, Andrew, Ava and Madalynn

Sleep

Laughter

Freedom

The Atonement

Forgiveness

Prayer

Faith

What are some of the things that you are most thankful for?

What we really want out of life

2007-09-17T19:34:00.000-06:00

These past few weeks I have really thought about our purpose here and what we are to obtain. What are we to obtain? What kind of person do I want to be? These are some of the thoughts and feelings that I have. As I stated in my very first post, I have suffered with depression for years, it's something that I have become comfortable with, but hate it altogether. I have often wondered, "why do I have depression, and what did I do to deserve such a horrible disease?" As I have studied and prayed, I have come to realize that my depression is apart of me and it is apart of who I am. I was truly inspired to create this blog as a way to express my feelings into writing. Many people are probably wondering why I would share this with everyone? Well, I have been silent for way too long and I want to be a tool in helping others talk about theirs. I believe that we are given trials to test our faith and devotion to our Father in Heaven. It is in our trials that we come to know who we really are and what we are capable of overcoming. If you read this and suffer from depression, or have any advice to share, please share it so that others can be liberated from theirs.

We can be an inspiration to anyone and everyone!!!!!

2007-09-17T11:01:00.000-06:00

What a great weekend...

On Friday, Krista, Jackie and I decided to brave the single adults in Boise! We went to an Institute talent show and dance outside on the quad at BSU. It was alittle out of control and I even got a girl's number, such a luck girl. So as Krista was asking for her number, she pulls out a notepad and writes it on a piece of paper! Hello it's 2007 and we have cell phones!!!! We laughed so hard, I even kept the piece of paper, we'll see what happens these next few weeks! It's all because of Krista that I may have found the woman of my dreams, or wait, maybe it's her dreams, so funny! After the dance, Jackie, Krista, Alisha and I went to Old Chicago downtown to eat. It was quit an adventure this weekend. As soon as I get pics I will post them for all to see.

I want.....

2007-09-14T18:35:00.000-06:00

A few weeks ago we had a team building activity at work. It was inspired by my good friend Jodi. One night she wrote down all of the things that she wanted and I was blown away at what she had written. The majority of the items that she wrote were not of monetary value, but of establishing a better relationship with the Lord and bettering herself. For ten minutes we sat and wrote what each of us "wanted." Usually I wouldn't think twice about what I had written, but this time was different, I went home that night anf wrote my list in my jouranl and this is what I came up with....

I want to....

Hear that I am appreciated and loved daily

Love who I am

Feel loved

Be mentally and emotionally healthy again

Have NO more jealousy

Be able to spend more time with my family

Play with Keaton and Andrew every day

Go to the movies

Be a better friend

Not be controlled by my addictions

To wake up and have no worries

Be a better listener

Become a better Christian

Not worry about money

Get married and have kids

Start my own business

To travel through Eurpoe

Go to Wimbledon

Get back to the Temple

Read my scriptures everyday

These are just a few of the things that I "want." What are some of the things that you want and truly need? Please share them and feel completely comfortable in doing so. As I began putting things into writing, they are more real to me and each one of these "wants" gives me something to work towards.

2007-09-14T15:54:00.000-06:00

Depression has lived with me for the past 12 years and now is the time that I look it in the face and beat it! Depression is one pf those "silent" diseases that nobody ever wants to talk about or admitt that they or someone they know has it. I have been victim of this silent killer for years now and it has destroyed almost every aspect of my life. Over the years I have kept my depression silent for fear that I would be looked down upon or un-loved. It's time that someone speak out for all of is that suffer from depression. In sharing my stories and experiences, I hope that my words will reach someone and allow for them to come forward and face their own depression. If you are out there and you are struggling with depression and have nowhere to turn, please let me know and share your feelings with me. Together we can and will get through this!