Picking which battle to fight?

These past few days I have begun to realize that I, like many, are waging the war inside with ones self. My depression and focus have been completely off balance and I am desperately trying to get my life and spirit back on track! I am coming off of my current medication, Effexor and I am loosing my strength to win this seemingly endless battle with my mind. My doctor has lessened my dosage each month and next month begins the "cold turkey" method of NO medications until my current one works itself out of my system.

During this time of torture and sadness, I am learning of other methods of how to cope with this mental illness and it has not been easy. Today I couldn't even find the strength to get out of bed! it was so hard to think of depression and being unhappy, so I locked myself in my room, and tried to hide the hurt, sleep actually makes it worse. A close friend called me today and told me to meet her at a park, to take a walk and clear my mind. It was so comforting to speak with her and to hear of her advice. She put all of this into perspective that in essence, this is my own personal "Gethsemane."

I had never once before thought of it like that, but it brought me so much clarity and peace of mind. Just like our Savior did endure his trials of crucifixion, I too must overcome and learn from my own. I have been going to the Temple more frequently, twice in the last 4 days, in hopes that the Lord would reveal something to me and give me strength to overcome. It is going to be a long process, but I have faith I too can overcome my life's very own Gethsemane.