Trying to forgive.....

As I was looking through some old photos, I found some that I had barried and seemingly forgotten. Photos that brought back so many sad and confusing feelinfs and memories. Kip and I were best friends, we worked together, hung-out with the same goups of friends and even went to school togehter. We were basically inseperable for two years. I never saw it coming, but he grew cold and distant for no reason at all. I had sacrificed so much for him and for me and received nothing in the end but bitter and hateful feelings. I am still left wondering why he wont answer my phone calls, or even acknowledge that I am here and still wanting to be his friend. Forgiving him for being so hateful is something that I have not been able to yet do, and apart of me wonders if I will EVER be able to forgive Kip for telling me that he didnt want me to be apart of his life anymore! I pray for the ability to forgive him, but it has been difficult and impossible. What am I supposed to be learning from this experience, forgiveness, patience, what? If anyone who reads this post has any great advice, please share it, it's much appreciated!